The Guilt

The guilt I feel is sometimes overwhelming. I feel as though I have let my small family down, I feel as though I have dissapointed those close to me with not being able to present them a child to adore. I know they don't blame me, its not a question of blame, but I yet I feel this guilt. I keep telling myself, life goes on, if things don't work out then you can travel, which isn't true either, or I could buy my dream home with my dream yard... I guess I just want it all. Its just the realization that I can't.