Sunday, October 02, 2005

Repost from IF group...

I had to repost this since I know it will be lost on me forever if not. My response in IF-BG Ladies if your reading, You are so strong and one day we will get through this, somehow. I struggle with IF some days I can't even get out of bed, I don't have a counsellor, I write in my blog, I have some bad days where I have to cry for hours and scream why not me.. I am surrounded by pg women, or families, We are the only house on the block without or expecting kids, I work with 9 pregnant women, and then there are tonnes of expecting fathers too. I don't congratulate those that get pg anymore. I don't stare at belly shots, nor do I look below the shoulders of my pg friends bodies, those that respect me know that I will never ask to feel kicks, look at u/s photos or see the "bump" there are some that are ignorant and do anyway. To which I just ask them in return, would you like to see my bump of fertility drug fat? I come here [ovusoft], I read others struggles, I feel their pain, some days other women are stronger here and lift my spirits, others I am the one that lifts theirs. I am not sure a counsellor who unless has their own IF story could really and truely understand the feelings one has in this. Its just not something that you can learn from a classroom.